Farewell For Now, Everyone...

There is so much I need to say but I don't really know where to start...
I guess I'll start with the contest I hosted...

I have always loved DeviantART...I loved supporting my friends, uploading, and receiving new watchers as well as watching a few new people myself. I never fished for comments or begged for faves, I uploaded because I loved to draw.
This Contest mean't a lot to me. Like, a lot...It was my way of doing something fun for my so-called "Watchers".
It upset me beyond belief to see that THREE FUCKING PEOPLE entered...out of the 100+ watchers I have/had?
Even then so, out of the 3 who entered only ONE even posted an entry...
That's sad. Like, really sad. Which brings me to my next topic...

I am leaving DeviantART for awhile...
I never thought I would want to, but this well has run dry for me. It's nothing but a bag of worthless disappointment.
The Point Commissions I owe people will be refunded fully or I am still working on fully. (Note me please). I am not deactivating my account but I am putting everything in storage...And waiting for my Premium to run out.

Muku was the ONLY contestant who entered and submitted...Although she withdrew her entry to keep the OC she made...She wins first prize. Cause she took the effort.

My other issue is, I feel very insecure on this site...I have always had a huge issue with people who lack creativity and feel the need to copy or trace artwork to help "improve" their own...My artwork has never been safe on this site. I worked hard to morph from the ugly and - NOT MY OWN - Hamtaro Style to finally develop my very own...Not only from my own cartoon-creativity but it has also been inspired by my own real life animals as well. It aggravates me beyond belief to see pieces of my art end up in other people's attempts. I know...In before the bitching of "WELL YOU GOTTA START SOMEWHERE"...I get it, whatever. It's why I am withdrawing from posting. Maybe when I feel more confident I'll return...or...
Perhaps I will find somewhere else for awhile or just take a break from posting.

I have met many amazing people on here...dear and deep friends that I love more than anything...They know who they are. And I can't thank them enough for all they've ever done. Obviously I will be continuing to see you peeps on Skype.


Thanks for everything. Hope to see you all again soon. Those who really "want" to keep in touch from her,  Note me for my skype.
I may be back someday. Tis why I have decided to not deactivate...
Fuck, I may even silent-post...Idk. It depends how my feelings turn.

Sycohearted/Alli/Blade, signing off. Hope to be back in the future.